The Gentle Barn animal sanctuary opened in Missouri as a symbol of freedom in 2017. In March that year, six steers escaped a north St. Louis slaughterhouse, leading police on an hourslong chase through the city鈥檚 streets.
The spectacle won the animals a name 鈥� the St. Louis Six. The attention quickly became a movement to save the steers. Crowdfunding by animal rights activists in St. Louis eventually raised enough money to purchase the cattle from the slaughterhouse 鈥� and a California-based nonprofit, the Gentle Barn, agreed to create a sanctuary for them.
It seemed to be a happy ending for the animals and their fans in St. Louis. But eight years later, the Gentle Barn abruptly ended its operations in Dittmer, Missouri, under a cloud of confusion.
Volunteers watched the sanctuary they loved 鈥� and a place where some had worked for years as guides and docents 鈥� dissolve in a matter of days.
It has been a jarring retreat for a sanctuary that owed its creation to supporters in St. Louis. As former volunteers and staff deal with the fallout, anger has mixed with grief: Since October, five animals that once lived in the Missouri sanctuary have died. The sanctuary鈥檚 married co-founders, Ellie Laks and Jay Weiner, have faced increasing criticism from people they left behind.
According to former volunteers and staff, the closure of the Gentle Barn in October 2024 was a shock. The first public notice came on Oct. 25, when Laks and Weiner published a video on Facebook.
鈥淲hile our California and Tennessee locations are thriving and continuing on, we must close our Missouri location,鈥� .
Weiner said the nonprofit had been 鈥渨orking hard鈥� to stay open in Missouri, 鈥渂ut because of the pandemic, the weather, the economy and diminished financial support, we have to follow through with this plan.鈥�
Days after the announcement, the Gentle Barn鈥檚 nearly 30 animals were loaded on trucks and transported more than 300 miles to its sanctuary in Christiana, Tennessee.
It wasn't long after the closing that some of those animals started dying.
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More than a dozen former volunteers and staff members spoke to St. Louis on the Air about their experience in the sanctuary鈥檚 final days and the aftermath of its closing. Most requested not to be identified out of fear they could be barred from visiting the Gentle Barn鈥檚 other sanctuaries by going public with their criticisms.
Some had spent years with the sanctuary and its animals. Most said the first sign of trouble came a week before the surprise announcement of its closing: They鈥檇 received an order to prepare the sanctuary鈥檚 two horses and donkeys for transport to California.
鈥淓verybody there, all the staff and volunteers, were doing everything we could to give the best possible life to these animals,鈥� said former tour guide Craig Forster. 鈥淭hey were very well cared for and very, very loved. So it was very wrenching for us to be told that some of these animals were going to be taken away.鈥�
That separation was only the beginning. Only days after the Gentle Barn closed and moved its animals to Tennessee, news of a death reached the former volunteers and staff.
The first to die was a pig named Penny. The Gentle Barn website maintains a page for each animal; after Penny鈥檚 death in early November, hers had been moved to the 鈥淚n Memoriam鈥� section. was updated to say that the rescued pig had 鈥減assed away suddenly in her sleep of heart failure.鈥�
Penny had been found on a highway after falling out of a transport truck in 2017. She eventually grew to hundreds of pounds and was one of several large pigs that lived at the Gentle Barn. Penny was only a few months old when she first met volunteer Donna McCall.
鈥淸She] was rescued out of a horrible situation,鈥� McCall said. 鈥淭hat she managed to live a life where she was given love by all the visitors she had, me and other volunteers who adored her and we respected her, that was the most important thing to me. Showing her respect and having her feel it and know it.鈥�
McCall became Penny鈥檚 docent. For years, she acted as a guide and ambassador for the rescued farm pig. But she only found out about Penny鈥檚 death as the information was passed through an informal network of former Gentle Barn volunteers.
鈥淚 was devastated. This was one of my best friends in my life. We knew each other so well, and we were a team,鈥� she said. 鈥淭here was nothing publicly stated about Penny being transported, and three days later, trying to wake her up and having her be dead.鈥�
Over the next three months, four other animals died: the rooster, a chicken named and a turkey named .
In January, Gentle Barn made its first public announcement of the death of a former Missouri resident: , one of the St. Louis Six.
Forster, the former Gentle Barn tour guide, remembers Eddie as 鈥渁 calming, joyful presence.鈥�
鈥淗e'd just let you curl up against him, just when someone needs that moment of peace away from the rest of the world,鈥� he said. 鈥淗e was a real gentleman. He was gentle with everybody.鈥�
, Gentle Barn said Eddie 鈥渋njured his spine while innocently playing with his brothers one day, and would never walk again.鈥� An update on the sanctuary鈥檚 website included further details: 鈥淟eft with no other options, our veterinarian helped Eddie out of his body while we thanked Eddie for the privilege of knowing him, and praised him for being so resilient, brave, loving, and kind.鈥�
The deaths of Eddie, Penny and the other animals have hit former volunteers and staff particularly hard. While grieving, Forster maintains that the deaths were preventable.
鈥淲e don't believe it would have happened if those animals were still here,鈥� he said. 鈥淲e believe that we were looking after them in the best possible way that we could.鈥�
Last wishes
Beyond Gentle Barn co-founder Jay Weiner blaming 鈥渢he pandemic, the weather, the economy and diminished financial support,鈥� there鈥檚 been no official explanation for the sanctuary鈥檚 abrupt closure.
On Wednesday, Ellie Laks said the decision to close came down to the organization's financial struggle during and after the pandemic.
鈥淭he animals are always our first priority, and so their care must continue even if it means letting go of a location. We did that to make the organization whole,鈥� she said. 鈥淎nyone that has run a business, they understand that sometimes really hard financial decisions have to be made, even if it impacts people, even if it causes loss and sadness.鈥�
Laks said that she understood people felt hurt by the closure. "Unfortunately, some people's response to pain and to sadness is to lash out,鈥� she said.
She added, 鈥淭his was just as much a loss for me and Jay 鈥� more than the volunteers that called the Gentle Barn a home while we were in St. Louis.鈥�
According to the Gentle Barn's tax filing documents in 2023, the nonprofit reported about $3 million in contributions and an additional $1.7 million from revenue generated by its visitor program and merchandise. It also reported $5.1 million in expenses.
Laks said that the sale of the former Missouri Gentle Barn has put the nonprofit on more solid financial footing with its two remaining sanctuaries in California and Tennessee. A for the 24-acre Dittmer farm shows the property sold in January for $600,000. That鈥檚 $200,000 more than the nonprofit paid for the farm in 2017.
That year, animal activists in St. Louis raised more than $17,000 through multiple GoFundMe campaigns. After the steers had been purchased from the Star Packing Co., the Gentle Barn leveraged public attention around the Six Louis Six to raise $400,000 to establish its Missouri expansion.
In a 2019 appearance on St. Louis on the Air, Ellie Laks credited 鈥渢he generosity of the community鈥� for the Gentle Barn鈥檚 ability to care for the St. Louis Six and dozens of other animals in the sanctuary.
鈥淚t's a wonderful partnership,鈥� Laks added. 鈥淓very day, we're looking to the community to help us so that we can even save more lives.鈥�
According to former volunteers and staff, Laks and Weiner rarely spent time in the Gentle Barn鈥檚 Missouri sanctuary. But the founders maintained direct command of its operations and made the final decisions on animal care. This arrangement led to increasing tension with key staff members.
In the weeks before the Oct. 25 closure announcement, the Gentle Barn lost its location manager, Christine Seacrist, and Liz Wiley, the sanctuary鈥檚 animal treatment specialist. Both declined to comment for this story but confirmed that they had signed nondisclosure agreements with the Gentle Barn.
There were other deaths at Missouri鈥檚 Gentle Barn during its existence 鈥� that was expected, volunteers and staff told St. Louis on the Air, since many of the animals had been bred to grow quickly to massive size before being slaughtered.
However, the deaths of the five former Missouri residents in just four months are raising concerns among former volunteers about the nonprofit鈥檚 policies around animal care and euthanasia 鈥� which the sanctuary describes as the act of 鈥渉elping鈥� animals out of their body. The nonprofit follows a particular directive when evaluating animals at the end of their lives.
The requirement involves Laks鈥� professed ability to communicate with animals.
The Gentle Barn鈥檚 euthanasia policy is found in the sanctuary鈥檚 standard operating procedure, a document that St. Louis on the Air obtained and verified for authenticity.
The policy states that unwell animals under the sanctuary鈥檚 care may be treated with 鈥渧eterinary care, getting second opinions when necessary鈥� as well as 鈥渁cupuncture, massage therapy, chiropractic care, nutritional supplements [and] holding therapy.鈥�
The policy then goes on to list 鈥渆nergy healing, animal communication, and lots of love to give that animal every chance of recovering.鈥�
If those measures fail, the policy states: 鈥淐all Ellie so she can communicate with the animal to get their last wishes. She will confirm that the animal wants to be helped out of their body and whether they want something before they go.鈥�
Laks is not a veterinarian. On Wednesday, she said that her ability to communicate with animals 鈥渋s only a tool to assist our veterinarians, and it's just one of the many, many ways we care for the animals.鈥�
Laks is referenced numerous times in the sanctuary鈥檚 operating document. Staff members are directed to alert her if an animal loses weight or changes diet. She maintained that the sanctuary鈥檚 animal care is led by its veterinary staff.
鈥淲e use acupuncture, chiropractic massage therapy to assist and to help,鈥� she added. 鈥淪ometimes, I weigh in with animal communication. If the animal has a specific request, we all work together as a team to care for these animals.鈥�
Laks maintains a consulting business in which . She charges $200 per hour and requires a photo of an animal looking into the camera. According to her website, 鈥淓llie will connect with your animal and when Ellie is done communicating with your animal (approximately 30 mins), she will call you to tell you what they said.鈥�
Saying goodbye
The Gentle Barn鈥檚 final day of operation arrived Oct. 27. The parking lot swelled with more than a hundred visitors. Volunteers said they scrambled to see their favorite animals one last time before they all departed for Tennessee.
Weiner, the co-founder, was there that Sunday as well. According to multiple people who witnessed the interaction, after the visitors had gone home, he attempted to defuse the day鈥檚 tension while addressing a group of volunteers.
Volunteer Brandi Cross had hoped he would finally explain why the Gentle Barn was closing. She said that didn鈥檛 happen.
鈥淛ay said that it was an employment issue, and it was confidential, and he couldn't tell us. He repeated that several times,鈥� Cross said. 鈥淭here was a lot of tears. There was a lot of anger in that meeting.鈥�
Multiple former volunteers noted the lack of fundraising to save Missouri鈥檚 Gentle Barn. The nonprofit regularly sends text and email alerts to raise money for emergencies like flooding and medical care. The only such alert for Missouri鈥檚 Gentle Barn came on Oct. 25, the day its closing was announced. It asked recipients for help raising $75,000 to move the Missouri animals to Tennessee and California.
The absence of any emergency campaign has led former volunteers like Cross to wonder what went wrong in Missouri. Was it a matter of money, employment, animal care or something else?
Her frustration extends to the consequences of the nonprofit鈥檚 abrupt transport of so many animals to new locations. She finds herself refreshing the sanctuary鈥檚 website 鈥渉oping and praying there's not another one of our animals on it that has passed away.鈥�
鈥淲e're angry that we don't feel there's adequate staff in Tennessee to handle this many animals coming down there at the last minute,鈥� she continued. 鈥淚'm not finding any fault in anybody from Tennessee. I'm finding fault in the founders 鈥� this should have been planned better and with more care and concern for the safety of the animals. And it wasn't.鈥�
For former staff member Craig Forster, there鈥檚 another layer to the heartbreak. He asked a question that only co-founders Laks and Weiner can answer.
鈥淚f they thought there was a problem coming, why not tell us that? Why not speak to the people involved and see if we can help?鈥� he said. 鈥淏ecause everyone here knows people, everyone works for different companies. Everyone could try. The people of St. Louis raised money to rescue those animals in the first place. Why not give those people the chance to see if they can save that location too?鈥�
Asked to respond to those concerns and the apparent absence of a dedicated campaign to keep the Gentle Barn in Missouri, Laks on Wednesday instead praised the nonprofit鈥檚 鈥渨onderful development team."
"It was very evident that holding onto three locations was not possible for us,鈥� she said. "We had to make some very quick, very hard decisions to save our organization. And that is what we did.鈥�
The Gentle Barn Missouri began with the inspiration of the St. Louis Six, but in its eight-year lifespan it became home to around 50 animals, all rescued from abuse or slaughter or abandonment. It impacted the lives of thousands of human visitors, giving them a chance to experience the peace the animals had found there.
Rion Harper, a former volunteer, said he saw it happen every Sunday: People arrived at the Gentle Barn as curious tourists. They left changed.
鈥淲e had some people come that would tell us they never ate pork again because they met Rosie or Petunia, and that never would have happened,鈥� he said. 鈥淚t's not about changing everybody to what you believe in. But if you can make a dent of change in a positive way, no matter what it is, you're doing something right.鈥�
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